The Coffee Shop

Rain pouring down heavily that night, hazy lights of orange down the street.  Sharing an umbrella, Jasper and Hanna were walking together.  It was cold.  There was nothing else but silence and tears.  “I love you and you know it, that is why I’m letting you go.  I am not going to make this hard for you.  I want you to be happy even if it means losing you.  I know, winning your heart back would be the hardest thing for me to do now.  I have done my part, you’ve done yours.  I’ll be standing at the edge of the earth to wait for you just in case you’d come back to me”, Jasper telling this in a sad but light tone.  The two then finally arrived in a coffee shop.  The smell of roasted beans enshrouded the very soul of anyone that pass by it.  A small cafeteria with dim lights, perfect, a lover’s atmosphere.  You should go and see him now, he is there inside waiting for you I’m sure.  Jasper forcefully smiled to signal her, and then she left the shade, wiping her tears.  A simple goodbye.

Through the windows, Jasper clearly saw how invigorated, charming, and happy she was.  It reminded him of how lovely she was when they first met.  He smiled while trying to relive the memory of them, then turned his back and slowly started walking.

Time passed swiftly for both of them.  Hanna, having Jasper in her thoughts, decided to return home and finally make amends with him.  She went through people who could possibly know of his whereabouts, but none of them could ever tell where he was.  She persisted but was beginning to lose hope.  Until one day, she met one of his closest friend.  After a brief talk, that person then requested her to visit the coffee shop.  The place she and Jasper used to hang out.  The place where Jasper had set her free.  The place where she left him for another man while he was out standing by the window. 

A lot of things changed in the shop; from the window panels, the doors, but most especially the walls.  It was covered with folded papers, stationeries, and envelopes in variety of colors.  And then she saw a big painting of her and Jasper hanging up in the center walls.  Why is our picture here?, Hanna pointing into the direction of the painting.  The barman gazed and later realized it was her.  You are Hanna, Jasper’s Baby!  The two of you made this place very special y’know.  That painting you may ask, well, he sent me about some 15 years ago but the letters arrived here almost on a daily basis for those succeeding years.  Obviously, he wanted to send these letters to you but I suppose he had no idea where you went.  Instead, he addressed them all here.  Couples don’t just visit this place to meet, drink and chat, but also to read his letters and writings for you, and with that, they would understand true love really exists.  With these, he was able to prove that he loved you until his death last year. 

Learning that he died, streak of bright tears began to gather up in her eyes.  The barman brought up a wooden box with an unread letter inside and handed this to her while saying “This was the very first I received from him, and I have always thought it was special so I never opened it.  Do us the honor.”

The Letter Reads:

As I write this, I can feel my soul losing its grip on my body.  Its as if Death itself is crawling upon me.  As you have wished for me before we parted that night, Yes, I will live my life happy and without regrets.  I would be able to fulfill it by continuing to love you through the upcoming years.  I will live happy for I know I have loved and still love you, and there will never be not a single regret as loving you was unregretful.  I made something for you and I hope you can spare time to read it to ease you of your fears or anything that may bother you.

Gently and slowly I will heal

            Over that so called pain I’d feel

Orderly in time I’d be happy

            Do not hold Yourself guilty

But in this way do remember me

            Your man, Promise, I’d still be

Edge of earth, I’d be there standing

            Hereafter, You, I’d only be loving

Outcast, consider me in that way

            Newcomer, others will always say

End of story for the two of us

            Yes, I lost and I am the doofus

I Love You, vertical and horizontal

            Leaving traces of me being poetical

Our love would be just another memory

            Veiled, still, for the eyes of the majority

Ease yourself for I already know

            Your love for me has lost its glow

Over years, this will be something very true

            Under the stars, I’d be thinking of only You

Loving you still…

Jasper

Hanna then whispered to herself “I stood on the other edge…waiting to come back to you, waiting for this day to come true.”

There were no words to say, only teardrops to pay.

This Girl I Know

Counting 25 lovely days monthly

Is something I’m looking forward fully

But I hated 26th, and she has no idea

That freakin’ day sent me in paranoiahhhh!!

Before the night we would depart

I watched her sleep from my heart

With closed eyes I can see it right

How Angelic she was in that sight

I may be the corniest Poet in the universe

But I’d make her the loveliest in every verse

She rightfully is a walking work of art

I confess my amazement from the very start

Her hair sways in the open like cotton

Her hands are still soft though troublesome

A woman filled with mystique and tranquility

A person with indescribable personality

Complete poetic definition of a mean girl

A teaser, so don’t get caught in her twirl

I’m actually grinning while doing this poem

Oh Sweety, don’t spank me when you’re home

She can easily crush me with a hand

But she’d never do it even with my demand

She looks best when she starts smiling

Lines from her face send my mind flying

She is born with Sardonyx for felicity

A Prepared Leo with a flower of Poppy

The bright Sun being her guiding star

Sunny Saturday can get her very far

This girl I know of walks with me

This girl I speak of is Sweety

She simply is dah man’s man

And I simply am, still, the lucky one

Early Sunday Paranoia

The comfort in her arms I’m longing

And so I came by the river this Sunday morning

The scent of water softly free running

The scent of my girl wildly came rushing

Twiddling my thumbs as I whisper her name

Calling for help like a poor child in shame

In the shallow part my reflection looked so lame

But I am holding on my faith with good aim

Freezing wind coils around my body

Rendering emotions both sad and happy

Cold hands, warm heart was from her Daddy

A strong quote, I remember, she kept telling me

I have always called this, ordinary day

But now I understand what others tried to say

…14th of February is Valentine’s Day???

I didn’t know, until Sweety came my way

Countless Exquisite First Times I consider them

Close Fireworks of blue, red, yellow like gem

Fireflies, Ghosts, and Goosebumps like BhaMM!!

Free food, 9 mornings, and Taho we jammed

All of these things we’ve done together

Put a smile on me every time I remember

I sometimes pretend to forget the days of December

No use, I keep on losing, ending up missing her

It’s 6:12 A.M., the sunlight getting warm

Fog dissipates, dawn breaking with no harm

Standing at the edge, I sighed as I hum

I turned my back as it goes, eerie sound of my alarm

Walking home smiling through this ordinary day

I’m trying to change what others wanted to say

14th of February truly is just another day

As Valentine’s knows no specificity,

If a Sweety like mine would come their way

A Simple Talk

 I let my guard down again

Fallen for someone but then

To a person I never thought I can

We truly are in different worlds

She belongs to where love unfolds

I belong to the plains and colds

She is distinctly not the average

A big loving heart for young age

Awaiting to be written on like blank page

I don’t know if she is the one

But as sure I don’t want her gone

And if she is, then I’m done

Life, for the first time I cared

Though short of span we shared

Forever is nothing compared

Strong taste of sweet like Honey

Lucky I am to call her Sweety

Happy indeed she calls me Baby

I know I’ll never love this way again

So I’d stand beside her and until then

This girl will hold me, and I know she can

A Love Letter

I so longed to have a conversation with her

But I’m very much dreaded I might stutter

Looking at her my heart starts to ponder

Just the thought of her makes me catch my breath and shiver

Her smiles for the simplest of things are lovely

Her laugh radiates every soul in its entirety

She can be as twisted as you want her to be

Be warned, she is a girl you’d fall in love with unsurprisingly

I always listen when she starts speaking

Coz’ her voice is as charming as that of a bird humming

It is really hard to define exactly how I’m feeling

But I have to admit, she is the only, that I am loving

Stars twinkling above I’m casting my wishes on you all

Make this girl happy whenever we meet down the hall

Blow her hair gently to look back when I call

Hold me upright in my knees when I begin to stall

Oh wind ever so soothing when passing my ears

Please take away in your arms all hesitations and fears

Whisper to her that I love her and I hope she hears

Coz’ I’ve been dying to tell her and yes I’m in tears

I hope it is romantic enough this thing I have in due

I will have her read this letter then things will come out true

She will look at me with her almond eyes and that’ll be my cue

Then I will tell her my next few words, that is _ _ _

In Silence…

I wipe my tears as I wake up today

Her scent I smell and I’m happy I must say

Hugging her pillow tight, I need not to pray

Coz’ to make her stay, still, there is no such a way

I know I started another day so right

Coz’ it’s still her love I’m holding real tight

Separated, 973 miles from my sight

But only a heartbeat away from her Knight

Staring at a door across, I begin to fall

Sweet 1015, I asked for her hand, I recall

I kissed her and then I knew she’s my all

No argument, the Lady owns my heart and soul

As I walk pass the couch I remember

Her hand, lips, and heart altogether

I gasp for air coz’ from there I see her

Certain when I say, Baby, there’s just no other

From thinking of her with any given minute

My mind would go blank but I’m used to it

Others are noticing I’m trying hard to fit

But this loneliness, however, I just can’t cheat

Its written deep in me, no one knows

“I’m missing her so bad” my instinct goes

With cold tears crawling, it just shows

With warm tears crawling, it just grows

I wipe my tears as night ends this day

Her smile I see and there’s nothing more to say

Bracing myself tight, I really do need to pray

To help me find a way, to finally make her stay…

The Rest of Me

I arrived yesterday, I guess I can die…

Coz before me, unexpectedly, was Khai

Not a chance to glance at her eyes

I saw her back though, felt as cold as ice…

I walked wearin’ a smile toward a place

With every step moved with haste

Strugglin’ like good ol’ Jack…

With me wanting to call and say, “hey, I’m back”

I was overwhelmed by a familiar emotion

Slow phased but caused me exacerbation

I felt something pinched my heart

Long time ago, but it hit like dart

I recall her say eventually I’d find someone new

but why do I feel like there is no one else but you

I gathered my thoughts and walked, without a clue

even needed to close my eyes just to get it through

How could I ever forget that one-eyed cat

She saw one and everything was cut

Took it as a big joke but she made it reality

I don’t even know if there’s any certainty…

Until now, baffled to why it ended with just one click

It sucks coz’ my thoughts failed me to comprehend answers real quick

I know I will hold her mem’ry as I held her once

I can and will hold it, even if it cuts like a lance….

I remember that night in Sta. Ana

That now the only word left is “sana”

Water as sea made me closer to her

Water as tear was meant to stay after

You can never blame me for making this so lonely

What can I do? I shed my tears and she’s the only

Knowing her was just one thing I guess

Loving her…*chuckle*…come, be it put to test….

Here I am again with thoughts bended

Coz’ perhaps a part of me never made it nor mended

Of all those things I kept inside encrypted

This will only be my way to make it sacred

I can never escape the thought of all that might have been

Knowing now, they are nothing but a dream…

For Three, I’m wishing every single day

Only Happiness in every way

Lass

I’ve lived officially for 22 years now…

With me taking every gapping gnaw…

Seen myself die like a clown…

Growing tired, they question me, how…

Sometimes it is better to look happy

Instead of you explaining why so jumpy

Yes, people see me smile like Humpty

With Dark side lurking unknowingly 

I can never ask for more I say

Really? I think twice with dismay

I’ve tried to control what comes my way

Ending up losing, and then I pay…

I started living when I met LM

With deep breath I spit it like phlegm…

Yes, I was being repelled by them…

But now it’s my turn, I’ll devour ‘em…

I’ve given the real man in me

Proved it was just a wasted gesture to be

Now watch, you will curse me…

I’ll be breakin’ you unsuspectingly…

I know it is forbidden

But this is a path I have chosen

They unleashed me and until then…

 My turn!! I say again

They killed what LM made in me

Vengeance creepin’ would agree

The new Jap is waiting and is free

Now’s the time, I will move “Killing Spree!”

Abomination

No one knows but it shows

No one would understand the things I pose

As simple as my mentality it rose

Beyond my reckoning it goes

I speak of my purpose in time

Yes, Incapacitating like crime

Resilient in a straight line

But few would consider it sublime

I saw myself bow before pain

Reasoning behind dark corrupted shame

Enshrouded by clouds of maim

Now, those acts will come in vain

Vanity for years I resisted

Now, Hatred I crave and commended

I know I’m devastatingly demented

But please do accept my amendment

Altering my efficacy is one thing

Coz’ ominous ideas still hanging

I’ve grown numb to what they call longing

For I will never again seek what is dying

My plans will nurture by faith

No perspective will cure this hate

You will call me cold like wraith

For in their tears, I will bathe…

This ain’t a love story, but a story ‘bout love

 I saw her 7 years ago

Now I wish I can let it go…

Living in my past I know

There is no escape even so

It is so cold and old

Yes, memories in a hundredfold…

Barely and rarely told

But I admit, it was bold

I can easily get over her

But I chose to bear this forever

This is my actual fervor

Like, to forget her never…

Holding her hand is what he does now

And holding him back, she made vow

They are happy together anyhow

Warmth in me, to them, I bow

I love you, the words I never said

Constantly reverberates in my head

I passed on a chance, and for years I bled

Killing me still, though I’m already dead

So many things I ought to tell you

Crazy things, I say’ll make me blue

Sorted memories I call it true

Dreams I call it You…

She is free in my heart to be

And yes it would always be

LM… Live happy for me

Even if it ain’t with me…

I hope you see the world happy

Every moment rendered lovely

The way I saw splendidly

7 years ago,  unregretfully…

There is only one

For every word I say,

there is a meaning that’s meant to stay

For every piece broken in my soul,

there is always someone to make it whole

For every insanity that dwells in me,

there is a remedy I ought to guarantee

For every purpose I speak of rarely,

there is a reason to die for evenly

For every moment that I’m full of hatred,

there is always a time to clear my head

For every chain that binds my entirety,

there is always a locksmith to set me free…